Where does my mind go as night comes?

Fuuhhh,,,, Where does my mind go as night comes?

Every single of my step, I always follow that road. It’s along distance road and bending as well. I don’t think that it is a very long road, even longer.

Sometimes, I’m confused about the steps I’ve made. Nevertheless, I have to convince myself that it will be worthy experience for my coming steps.

Before getting sleep, the steps I’ve made usually comes in my head. It’s such a burden to me that I can’t sleep. I’ve worked all-day. I’m very exhausted, I do like to sleep. I wish I could sleep. I do not know why it bother me so frequently that I can’t sleep all-night. Or, perhaps it’s just my fear of being mature. I can say that it’s my fear.
I feel scared too about the steps I’ve made. I’m scared that my steps have a boomerang effect (I hope it wouldn’t) since I’m haunted by my unfulfilled goal (May Allah always help me).

Once, I think over the past which is simple to me. Yet, I know that it is not plausible after knowing it from my previous steps I’ve made, time I’ve passed through, lessons I’ve got and many kind of people I’ve met.
Various steps I’ve made. I do not know which one is out of the track. I feel that the steps I’ve made will be useful for me, especially my family for accompanying me always.
I do hope those steps become better and better.

Maturity

Maturity,,,

Can anyone define what maturity is?

People, mostly, call themselves as mature people after 20 y.o. Sometimes, people who can make critical decision for their own feel that they’ve been grown up.

Maturity’ definition is wide. It can confuse some people, sometimes. I myself confuse about what being mature is.

What are the characteristics of mature people? Mature people could be :
- People who have bravery and quick response in making critical decision for themselves
- People who know how to behave in community
- People who can think for the future
- People whose ages are more than 20 y.o.
- etc

Well, there are many definitions about maturity. I’m not grown up yet. Time will lead me to maturity.

Unlike me, the others might have different ideas about maturity as well as have freedom of delivering its. There is no prohibiton for Indonesian to deliver the ideas.

I meet a number of mature people in my world ; in my working-area and in my environment where I’m living.

To me, mature people are confusing. They confuse me frequently.

i'm falling in love with database

I'm MERDA, my age is 18th, now i'm working at the Software House.

FirstLy, i didn't beLieve that i can master database.Yet, i'd Like 2be a programmer like my friend in the office. I'm learning from my friend now, as weLL as being an implementator for erp project in a factory. I can't stop hunting my science.

Thanx for supporting me, my god, my family, and my friends.